Friday, May 22, 2020

Ae Dil Hai Mushkil/Hiatus

Yeh rooh bhi meri
Yeh jism bhi mera
Utna mera nahi
Jitna hua tera

Tune diya hai jo
Woh dard hi sahi
Tujhse mila hai toh
Inaam hai mera
.......

Tujhko main kitni
Shiddat se chaahun
Chaahe toh rehna tu be-khabar
Mohtaaj manzil ka toh nahi hai
Ye ek tarfa mera safar, safar
Khoobsurat hai manzil se bhi
.........

Did you guys manage to guess that it would be this song? 

Oh! and I am planning on taking a hiatus, a short break you may call it; may be a week or two not more. I have to go back - rebuild and fortify my position, aree bhai Quarantine khatam ho raha hai toh ab sab introspection chod chaad ke waapus jaana hai wahi jaha se yaha aaye the.

Small talk kaafi hui ab jaayenge hum gaane ki rooh ko samjhne. Rooh samjahte toh? Rooh woh hai jo amar hai, iska anth nahi. Yeh woh hai jo aapko ishvar se joode rakhti hai. Ishvar aapka khuda - in this context, his lord is his love for her. He worships his love.

The song is my favourite not because it's sad but soley for the lyrics and the emotion they incite. Now the protagonist is in love with a woman and it's unrequited (see the movie) but that doesn't stop him from loving her. Nobody can stop an individual from loving anybody, not even me. 

Have you ever realised how fragile a human mind can be and even delicate is our body, mitti se bane hai hum bas paani daalo ya krodhit ho jaao - toh hum kya humaara vajood sab dhul jaayega. 
And when you surrender that which belongs to you to somebody special, you are left with longing. Rooh bhi de di, jism bhi de diya, mera sab tujhe de diya and mere paas ab sirf bachi hai teri yaaden and mere paas kai saalo ki yaaden hai, main jee lunga. Woh jee lega. 

And the line, Mohtaaj manzil ka toh nahi hai
Ye ek tarfa mera safar, that's the best part of the song the protagonist is narrating; in life you don't need to have a definitive goal, occassionally we are chasing something so elusive the world calls us mad, mad he/she may be and is looked down upon but then that's his/her way of life. It's the path I chose and walk on it, I will - all the perils and the uncertainty - it's what I chose. 

There is a beautiful story I had come across once. The world kept telling Majnu that his Laila is dark skinned akin to a moonless night and in his response he says, 'the letters in the Holy Book are written in black, so now tell me when a life what you live by is inscribed in black, who are you to question, who I chose to live with?' - kaafi deep hai!

Coming back to what the song expresses, he loves the girl for sure and will love her till the end of his days but he is not dependent on the outcome coz he has given up on it and rather is living with something even more poignant, her in the best form - a beautiful memory, like the memory of old childhood tales, of imagination and wonder, of nostalgia!

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Meri rooh hai judi tujhse, 
Karam mera Ishq hai
Har woh cheez teri jo thi/hai
Yaado main woh sambhaal li hai

Tuesday, May 19, 2020

Kise dhoond rahe ho?

Dhoond kya rahe hoo tum yaha?
Yaha kuch nahi rakha.
Milengi bas kavitayen tumhe
Thoda kuch in main jhaank lo

Pad kya rahe hoo tum yaha?
Kitab ka panna thodi hu?
Kora kaagaz ho, humari kitaab se phata
Udd ke main yaha aa gira.

Kya soch rahe ho dikhega yaha?
Yaha main kavi nahi.
Milega tumko ek insaan yeh
Khud hi ko jisne kabhi ka kho diya

Batau tumhe milega kya yaha?
Milega mera junoon
Milegi meri kahaani
Milunga main nahi, woh!

Tum usko dhoond rahe ho yaha?
Nazar ghuma ke toh dekho, har jaga bas woh hi milega. 
Bas woh hi milega. Bas woh hi milega. 
Mera Khuda bas yahi milega!

Kalank Bonus Track

Dil mein jo dilbar ka darbaar hai
Sajde mein baithe hain jitni dafa
Woh meri mannat mein har baar hai
.......
Jo apna hai saara sajaniya pe waara
Na thame re kisi aur ka aanchal piya
.......
Kalank nahi ishq hai kaajal piya.

Kalank - Bonus Track

Yeh gaana zara jaake sun na, jo koi bhi yaha pad raha hai na, sun na bas. 
This song has a soul. 

Everytime I listen to the song, I wonder - log aise lyrics sochte bhi kaise hai?
How are the writers able to express a certain emotion so beautifully in words that can be sung. None of my poems can be sung - only recited. 

The line, Kalank nahi ishq hai kaajal piya, we hide it from the world for the fear of backlash but I think that's something we fail at, tell the world what we are capable of and like how a woman inspite of her beautiful eyes, still applies her kaajal, everyday just to look that one bit more beautiful - love is just that - it's makes the two of us look that bit more adorable. 
Ask, why has the kaajal vanished, love never did, then why has the kaajal vanished?

Listen to the song and the original Kalank song too. It's beautiful, the lyrics. 
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'Ik tarfa shayad ho dil ka bharam
Do tarfa hai toh ye sanjog hai'
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Mohtaj manzil ka tu nahin hai
Yeh ek tarfa mera safar
(Ae dil hai mushkil)

Sochna zaroor!

You know what song I'll be reviewing next :)

Bediyan/Decisions

Hai mere paanv hi
Khud meri bediyaan
Us se mujhe tu chooda
......
Dil ke viraane mein
Mere phasane mein
Tu hi toh har dum raha.

-Tera Mera Rishta. 

I have been talking and talking a lot, to a lot of people, this quarantine and surprisingly each and everyone of us has gone through a phase of self-realization and have re-evaluated life choices at multiple levels. Some are questioning where their career is headed and some are questioning where their life?
How much have we lost ourselves in the process, which is an illusion to stay happy and what all have we buried for something that we assumed would give us peace in the long run, but now that life has slowed down and has forced us to think, to consider and to ruminate, the shroud is slowly disappearing. 

We make choices and sometimes choices are just an impediment in our endeavour to a life we imagined or a life pictured by us and sometimes you make choices because you need to go through the whole of your inner turmoil and uncertainty to be able to finally come out of it with a certain clarity. For some, like me it took close to two years to reach a conclusion of what I wanted with life and I am pretty clear with the outcome.

But on the other hand there are a few who struggle to choose with a decision that was taken/given due to circumstances - emotional or practical(very subjective) and when the realisation dawned upon them, their life turned topsy turvy and they are now just a child in a toy store, scared and confused. 
But you don't have to be, you are just going to come out of it stronger. But you need to do it alone. Nobody can and should hold your finger and take you to the exit, coz phir se you will just end up following the footsteps of that person who helps you and the(your) entire journey, your entire existence, will be rendered futile.

Now, I leave you with a thought - what do you want to do when you are 60 and are looking back at life? 
You want to be as confused as you are today or you want to look back and tell yourself, I respect myself for every action I took. 
You are not wrong if you are selfish, you are just looking out for self preservation. Isn't that a basic human instinct?
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Main juda nahi tujhse, tu ibadat hai meri
Tere liye main hardam hoo, yeh marzi hai meri.

Saturday, May 16, 2020

Zindagi

Taaron Bhari Ek Raat Mein
Tere Khat Padhenge Saath Mein
Kora Jo Panna Reh Gaya
Ek Kaanpte Se Haath Mein
Thodi Shiqaayat Karna Tu
Thodi Shiqayat Main Karun
Naraaz Bas Na Hona Tu,
Zindagi...
- Zindagi Kuch toh Bata.

These lines, can be interpreted in the most beautiful ways. Toota dil ho, ya bichde dost, ya koi extrovert - basically 'longing' ka koi bhi form ho.

Yeh scenes generally movies main hote hai but aise ek movie series hai 'Before Trilogy'; Before Sunrise is the first, it's beautiful, though I don't remeber much but I really want to re-watch it all, may be tonight

But again think about it, on the way to adulting, we end up losing so many friends, people we loved, family members and as years progress the realisation dawns upon us, as one starts getting busier some friends are no more at the same wavelength with you and you realise some have settled in a 'gruh grihasti' and some just fade out. 
And we envision a day when we can just sit down with a few and have just one night to discuss a lot that remained unsaid and one kicks himself as to why didn't they, May be the time is now?

Kora kagaz, ek unkahi kahani,
Tum aur main, meri zubaani. 

Monday, May 11, 2020

Eyes

Like a pristine pearl in the wind
Like a nightingales song in the night 
Like a budding lotus in the swamp
Like clouds during a monsoon storm 

Sunday, May 10, 2020

Stranger Times

Park main bench pe main baitha hua tha 
Woh aaye aur bagal main baith gaye 
Hum bench pe baithe bas dhoop sekh rahe the 
Samvaad ke scope se kayi dur.  

Koi brisk walk kar raha tha 
Toh koi daud laga raha tha 
Kae picnic mana rahe the
Toh kae bas tehel rahe the 

Hum chup ine bas notice kar rahe the 
Woh apne khayal samet rahe the, main apne.
Maine mera left waala earphone unhe offer kiya
Hum ab ek bahut hi madhur geet sun ne lage.

Not a word uttered, just a smile of thanks. 

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Ghanto beet jaate hai aise, kabhi jazz bajta hai toh kabhi Pink Flyod 
Kabhi hindi classics bajte hai, toh kabhi A.R. Rehman ya Amit Trivedi ki composition.
Playlist ke gaane khatam hote hi,
Hum uth te hai, aur chal dete hai.

Main unka naam nahi jaanta 
Woh mera pata nahi jaante 
Hum bas jaante itna hai
Ki music ka taste humara ek sa hi hain. 

Life ko hum uss sam-ae pause kar dete 
Aur gaano ko play kar ke chod dete
Aisa bhi saath milega koi, jaan ke bhi anjaane
Aur yeh hi hum doono ke liye kuch kaafi sa hai. 

Amazing Lyrics - Part 7

Oye laila laila laila meri jaan
Kya hai tera naam
Dekhun main tujhko ankh moond ke
Chhaila, chhaila karta hai salaam
Kya hai tera naam
Dekhun main tujhko ankh moond ke

AndhaDhun bechara, bechara dil aaj se
AndhaDhun bechara, bechara dil aaj se
Chal Monday raat se

Mere dil ke, dil ke
Dil ke bhi dil mein hai tu
Haan mere dil ke, dil ke
Dil ke bhi dil mein hai tu

---Listen to this song, it's a very happy song. 
I thought I always share all beautifully written poetic songs but this song - it's happy and it's fun. This is Amit Trivedi for you, listen to it for all the musical instruments come together in synchrony and makes it such a lively song. It deserves to be shared and I also know for a fact not many have actually listened to it. 
Go ahead it, it's perfect and I want 'You' to listen to it 'now' on full volume. Thank me in the comments. I know you'll love it. 

Yaha, click here

Friday, May 8, 2020

Thappad/Ek Tukda Dhoop

Ek dhaage mein hain uljhe yun
Ke bunte bunte khul gaye
Hum the likhe deewar pe
Baarish huyi aur dhul gaye

So I watched Thappad. Now, I knew it so going to make me think and think hard. It did. Have you ever reminisced about all the wrongs you've done and then sat and mulled over how you could fix it but never came around to fix it until it was too late and when you finally did, the film ended?
But sometimes - sometimes, you don't get permission into the next screen - so you are left wondering and then starts a reaction of self thought that either makes you a bitter person or makes you want to be a better person. 

The movie here is what I will talk about not in details, yeh hua, woh hua, nahi. Just a few parts. Parts that make you think about who you are as a human? 

There is a scene where he(Vikram) is talking to the father and says, 'ho gaya na' and the father responds, 'Zyaada zaroori saawal hai, aisa kyun hua?' 
That's the moment I savoured the most. I want to be man like that and to be real honest, I am not, never was - I try to be but I fail. May be I have taken a few things a bit too much for granted and never realised, aisa kyun hua and always reasoned with myself, ab ho gaya na, aage kya?

The next scene is, when she is sitting at her mother-in -law's feet and says, 'uss raat ke baad koi nahi aaya mere se milne......Amu ko bhool jaana chahiye' -
This scene just tore me apart, I was in tears (rivers flowed that night) at this moment. 
I remember a moment when my self respect once took a hit. I ended up at a wrong platform (at a certain stage in life) and I was there with hope, hope, for I felt it was the right thing to do and I found out later that it wasn't. The moment your self respect takes a hit, you are bitter and it's not easy to forgive. It's never easy to forgive. When I can't, then I can't expect forgiveness when I am at fault. I too have sinned. 

The scene that made me the most sad was when he tells Amu, 'Amu iss baar na, kamaunga main tujhe'
That resonated with me, you sometimes screw up so many relationships - old friends, new friends, important people, so many - that you have to then earn them back, bit by bit from zero. It's not easy. But you do if it matters to you. I tried that, when I ended up at the wrong platform (at a certain point in life referenced earlier), I arrived with a hope, a hope, that I can earn back what was once mine - bit by bit, I didn't expect it was easy, but I did try. I didn't want to give up hope. Like Vikram here does not. 

But then at one point, Amu says, I don't love you, when I don't love you I can't live with you. What do you do then? 
I'd say, pack your bags and get the fuck out, with grace. Dignity above all. You can't force people to like you, infact you should never do that. I've lost friends - I've tried reconciliation but when they are uninterested or when I don't really care - it needs to be buried, and one that's gracefully done. Then you move on and they do too. 

Incase you can't move on and are stuck up, my advice, don't ever tell them coz they don't care and why should they? They don't owe you shit, they did when they did, now it's your problem you live in the past or you are living with a sense of longing. It's your problem, you might as well deal with it. 

This particular emotion is beautifully captured in the lines below from the movie itself. 

Hijr waali raato ki, (hayee)
Kabro main soo gaye.

Tum humaare jitne the 
Sach kaho kya utne the 
Jaane do mat kaho kitne the.

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Nahi sun na kitne the
Shayad utne nahi the 
Jitna hum chahte the
Waise hi rehte hai, jaise the?

(Note: Lot of important points and issues raised by the makers- must watch for men atleast)

I had to add this -
A point where Ratna Shah and Kumud Mishra are having a conversation and he says, 'maine aapko kabhi kisi cheez ke liye mana kiya hai?'
She replies, 'Mana nahi kiya, par poocha bhi toh nahi, ke Sandhya tumne gaana kyun chod diya'

This is not just men and women, but then it's about a relationship of every kind, kya aapne kabhi poocha mujhhse - rather have the two of us ever spoken to each other about the other and not about my problems, listen to me and then I'll lend you my ear, it's not a post office and we are not in a queue. 
I am guilty of this too, with some people, it's just about me, my problems. 
Have I ever asked them - aaj aapne mera suna, aap bataye - how are you doing?
It can be your friend, your brother, mother, anybody. 
Think about it. Such a small question, yet such an important one at that. 

Tuesday, May 5, 2020

Raanjhana - Tum Tak

Hum khoon bahaye, tum aanso bahao, saali aashiqui na ho gayi, lathi charge hongaya. 

Kya dialogue hai bhai yeh. 

So I finally watched Raanjhana and I am not here to review movies. That's not my job, I'll leave that to Anupama Chopra  - that critic who is Vidhu Vinod Chopra's wife, ya, her husband made Munna Bhai MBBS, arre Sanju movie ussi ki toh thi. After all they make movies and review movies, family business, in product positioning it's called Brand Line extension. Let's not get Marketing here. Waise bhi, MBA in marketing, I am not, so let's just leave that to them and movie reviews to family run conglomerates, shall we? (Read the first comment here)

Back to my lyrical analysis of songs. 

Tum Tak
Meri har hoshiyaari bas tum tak
Meri har taiyari bas tum tak
Tum tak tum tak arzi meri
Phir aage jo marzi
Tum tak tum tak arzi meri
Phir teri jo marzi meri

Piya Milenge 
Jo hai dekha, wohi dekha tho kya dekha hai
Dekho woh, jo auron ne naa kabhi dekha hai

And the music is A.R Rehman - so the songs have to be good and some just pierce you. Think about it, the music is so good that 7 years later I still can't get the tune of Tum Tak off my head. Also, if I have to sum up the protagonist's character arc it can be defined as; everything that I do is just for your attention, everything I am is for your acceptance, in fact my existence is after your approval and the day that stops I will cease to exist and that's exactly what the movie is all about. I am smart yet I am dumb - contradictory? Exactly. (I know what I do) if asked about it to the famous stoic, Seneca, it'll will be termed, blasphemy - but then I am no stoic I am a Shakespearen romantic. A story and an ever recalled tragedy. Dhanush - you made it all come true with your powerful acting. 

The movie leaves no impact on me whatsoever but the songs do. The songs do. 
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Ishq main barbaad kaun nahi hota
Surkh lahu kis kis ka nahi behta
Aankhri saans bhi jab alvedi legi
Woh bhi tujhe, sirf tujhe aa milegi. 

(Spoiler: Not my feeling - agar film tumne dekhi hai toh woh last ka scene jab he spits out blood - that's what I am referring to
Watch this Scene for the final dialogue - which is powerful)

Monday, May 4, 2020

Bhaunri/Paar Channa De

There is more than one way for the hearts to meet, sometimes they are twisting each other but inseparable.

Love doesn't fear anything, it doesn't even fear losing love itself.

-Bhaunri

Oh man, these lines, this quarantine no, it's messed with the way I have been thinking. Generally I am busy with life, I am busy with work and allot lesser of my time to ruminative thoughs but this lockdown has been the most unique.

I am trying to put thoughts to words and analyse these lines and I have come to realise most of my write ups have ended up becoming an extension of each other with a dark overtone and most are considered depressing, I am cognizant of it, so if you find that's such themes are not of your reading preference, drop off right here, may be you are not the target audience I am writing for.

The lines talk of love that's hurtful, love that's lost yet love exists, it's a tragedy in the making. It's like a part of you that's now lost forever and love is such and then you live with that status of existence. Losing love for the love of self preservation, I think.
The song Paar Channe De beautifully describes that situation.
Let me just highlight a few lines,

Soni -
Paar chanaan de disse kulli yaar di
Ghaá¹›iya ghaá¹›iya aa ve ghaá¹›iya
Raat haneri nadi á¹­haaá¹­haan maardi
Aá¹›iye aá¹›iye haan ni aá¹›iye

Ghariya-
Kacchi meri miá¹­á¹­i kaccha mera naam ni
Haan main na-kaam ni.
Kacchiyaan te rakkhiye na umeed paar di
Adiye adiye haan ni adiye

Soni -
Vekh chhalla paindiya na chhaddin dil ve
Haan lai ke khillh ve
Ajj Mahiwaal noon main jaana mil ve
Haan aiho dil ve
Yaar nu milegi ajj laash yaar di.

Ok, these are not a few lines, infact quite a few. So bear with me.

This is the story of Soni - Mahiwal and that you can pick up as an after read. We'll not be getting into that story but more about why this song is beautifully tragic and one of my favourites too. I have a penchant for all things tragic. My brother says, a man would either die or kill you before he reaches the end of your play list. Back to what I am here for.

It's not about a warning from the Earthen Pot to the lady about the futility of love and relying on crumbling or shaky foundations to help you take forward a relationship of any form i.e. family, friends, lovers or anything.
But if you have to flip the perspective,
It can also be construed as grit - the determination to make it work inspite of crumbling foundations.

So which one is it?
There are always two sides of a coin, always where either will have extreme views of how things should be tackled.
This song here, the pot is looking at survival of a relationship by not crossing the river as it will not hold up against the currents of a raging river while the other doesn't pay heed, her love for him doesn't see the futility of the task, she is ok losing her love for love. Kind off sounds like a tongue twister now.

That's the thing with the two statements, you will have to take calls of separation and that'll cause you pain in the long run where you are inseparable, in my option it hurts worse than one's cavity ridden tooth. You'll lose love for love because sometimes that's the only logical step forward but then that love itself will cause you so much pain that whatever you do in life, it'll just keep rearing it's ugly head to remind you of it's eternal presence. Intertwined in love, inseparable yet staring at targic end.

Ah, the futility of it all. This entire blog too. Usage of the word Love has been overdone. I apologise. I didn't have fun reading it either, I hope you did. It's only here coz the effort I put in writing. I am Soni, I know it's a failure but I'll still go through, after all let's go all the way, might just survive. 

Saturday, May 2, 2020

Taral

Kyon ki prem main, insaan taral ho jaata hain.
* Medha Bhatt
Again, this woman writes like a dream, it's not direct - where you are reaching from point A to point B. It's layered. If she would have used the word mad, happy or referred to something that mentioned a single emotion, I'd not have written such a long post about it but using the word 'Taral - Fluid', is the most powerful move she could have pulled.

Think about it, we are not a single emotion in love, we are much more - we are happy, angry, mad, insecure, trusting, possessive we are everything that is greedy as well as accomodating - this here is being fluidic.

We go lengths to make sure that one person is retained or atleast the one person is around us at all times, hum kisi bhi shape main dhal jaaayenge bas tera hona zaroori hain. Sab jo aaj tak nahi kiya woh bhi kar jaayenge bas tera saath mujhe chahiye.
Woh gaane ke bol yaad aate hai,

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Kaga Re Kaga, Mori Itni Araz Tose, Chun Chun Khaiyo Maans
Re Jiya Re, Khaiyon Na Tu Naina More
Piya Ke Milan Ki Aas.

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Taral hoke insaan abaad ho jaata hai.

Medha then says,
Sabse Saral insaan prem karta hai, par saral hona sabse kathin bhi hota hai. 

Friday, May 1, 2020

Parcha-ii

Yun is tarah dastak tu dega
Yeh socha na tha
Band kamre ko tod aayega
Yeh socha na tha

Door kahi baitha hoon main
Yun aana zaroori na tha
Waqt se tez daud raha hoo main
Yun rook-na laazmi na tha

Akele hai par haare nahi
Yeh saath tera maanga nahi
Toote hai par raakh nahi
Yun chingari sulgaana jayaz nahi

Yaadon ko teri mita chuka
Akele phir main chal pada
Yun mera peecha chodo bhala
Yaaden, raah apne pe niklo zara?

Tanha tha, ab nahi
Akela hoo, udaas nahi
Yaaden humari, main ab apnata nahi
Phir kyun parchai ban, rehte yahi?


Palash ke Phool

Tum humare baagi-che ke us Palash ke saare phool rakh lena,
Main uska path-jhad rakh lungi.

- Medha Bhatt.

These lines stand out for me, I don't know why, the way I interpreted it was, there is so much that is taken away from you sometimes, that you just end up with scattered memories and nothing else.

These memories you try to rake into a single mount to perfection and then try to stitch together a fabric of the best memories leaving out all the painful ones.

Life is such and so are our memories. It's just sometimes, we end up with the shorter end of the stick and we have to pick ourselves from there and rebuild it all. Do we have the courage? Do we have the same drive?

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Toote hum is tarah, ke dard bhi na hua,
Jab dard hua toh is tarah, ke bardasth bhi na hua.


Loneliness - 2 (Man)

Loneliness for me is more to do with not being hypnotised by time and flowing with it, everyday like a computer lab simulation. It's a feeling of absolute clarity, about yourself, on who you could have been but what you turned out to be.

All your mistakes hound you, all your decisions hound you. You have friends, you are not alone but you don't have yourself to support you any more in fighting with the onset of the word, introspection. Time gives perspective, they say!

Loneliness is when your introspection takes a form of self loathing and you distance yourself from people.
Or for the masses, loneliness is not a word with a Oxford dictionary definition. It's a feeling unique to you and me. I'll always see it differently than you ever would.

Me, I say?
No, way, I have Marredpally Street Ravagers. Tu jaanta nahi mera bhai kaun hai. Logo pe केहर macha ke rakha hai. Tu idhar aa ke toh dikha. (This is profound)
Fin.

Loneliness - 1 (Dog)

Loneliness pe aapke kya vichaar?
Bow wow!
Telugu main bola hai, translation main karta hai

Acha aap bhi bhooke jaa rahe hai?
Bow wow!
Acha aapko bhi khaana nahi de rahe hai rahgir?
Bow wow!
Yeh lijie biscut khaae. Ab dost?
Bow wow!
Good boy, you such a goodie boy!

Tell your gang - Marredpally Street Ravagers
I am a friend
Not a foe.
When lone, I go
Not to hound me no more!

Khuda

Sajde main jab sar jhuka
Toh eh khuda tu yaad aaya
Aasman main baitha kahi
Tera aks nazar aaya

Mohabbat main jab fanaa hua
Toh eh khuda tu yaad aaya
Meri har woh dua ki arzi
Khuda tere paas darz kar aaya.

Jab phas gaya jeevan raah pe
Toh eh khuda tu yaad aaya
Mujhe disha dene ka zimma
Tujhe pe tha chod aaya.

Ab jab chalne ka waqt hai aaya
Toh eh khuda tu yaad aaya
Aazadi de de mujhe mere khuda
Le le tu dulat aur karde rihaaa.

Aasman main dekha toh khuda tu Nazar aaya
Aazad ab falak ki oor main udta tere paas chala aaya.

Song Credits: Rockstar.

Toote Kivad

Parde kabhi hata kar toh dekho, toote kivad kae milenge
Kae doop sakte milenge, kae jhoolte hue milenge

Bahaar kabhi jaank ke toh dekho, bhatke hue kae milenge,
Tum bhi wahi milogi, main bhi wahi milunga,

Haath kabhi bada ke toh dekho, shayad kuch dur raah saath chalega,
Shayad meri baisakhi tum banogi, shayad main tumhara sahara.

I survive ro Flourish

I survive to flourish.

Only 15% have received grains
Sir, you said no one will sleep hungry again.
Your silos are filled to the brim
Why then is the situation grim?

I survive to flourish

I migrated from the place of my birth
I migrated to flourish in the land of gold
I work for greener pastures
But sleep on streets and foothpaths.

I survive to flourish

Our wheat has rot
Our vegetables not been bought
You promised us, you'd buy from us
You promised us, no more money from money lenders

I survive to flourish

I had to walk back to my pind
I had to walk back to my gaao
I reached the lanes of my village now
Ah! I see, it looks beautiful now

I survived to flourish

For an education to my progeny
A TV for my mummy
A jhuma for my biwi
A lakdi ki kaathi for my chutki

I couldn't survive, I couldn't flourish.
I died right where my own beckoned.

Domestic Abuse

Never reprimanded
Never touched
Why now the torture?

Food is on the table
That's the best we can afford
Why then, flying saucers?

Milk is expensive
Tea reserved for you
Legs burn with hot liquid!

Maids are on leave, not me
Everyone with family
Yet, nobody!

No money for self
work work work
Slave, with a dowry!

Quarantine is a threat
My live a mess
People will beat Corona
I may not see a tomorrow, na?

You said you knew best
Yeh kaha ka hai best?
This is your home now
Not home but hell.
Living with the hangman
h.e.L.P!

A Peep Hole

Week 1
A peep hole, can you see?
A whirlwind, a boat and the sea.
A dessert, an oasis and land
A building, a garden and human.

Week 2
A peep hole, what do you see?
It's a kaleidoscope and it's not free
Look, watch - oh! how trippy!
Colors distort, imagination blends, ooo wee!

Week 3
A peep hole, now where are we?
In our homes, under quarantine.
I see birds, I see trees,
Bloom and chirp, it's a party.

Week 4
A peep hole, now is that reality?
A virtual world, I am losing sanity
All the walls now closing in on me
Privileged, oblivious to tragedy.

Week 5
A peep hole, now what do you really see?
Out in the open, I see silhouettes
Falling down, some trudging along
I see a tragedy, I see reality.

Enough of virtual reality, now, tell me.

A peep hole, I see life we chose to ignore
Left to themselves, they exist no more.

4 wheels the two own

4 wheels the two own
One is chauffer driven the other is hand pushed.

4 wheels the two own
One is a symbol of status the other means to life

4 wheels the two own
One is sold - I upgrade to the latest model, the other is the only model

4 wheels the two own
One the cops fear to touch the other they fearlessly torch.

4 wheels the two own
No sun or rain can touch while the other is one with the elements

4 wheels the two own
One is covered and cared for
The other is empty and forlorn
The owners of one are in mansions for home
While the others walk in 40 degrees, 1400 kms, just to die on they way home. 

Panchi

Aaj khair lag hi gaya mujhe
Panchi, jo lagta hai tujhe

Pinjar main kaid, jab baahar ko tu dekhe
Falak pe suraj aur badal, lukha chuphi hai khelte

Kivad pe latke, awaaz hai lagaye
Jab saba tujhe aake sehlaye
Megh baras kar, jo tere saamne se nikal jaaye
Jiska aane aur jaane ka bhi anand tu na le paaye

Aaj khair lag hi gaya mujhe
Panchi, jo lagta hai tujhe

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Kabhi kabhi apun ko lagta hai,
Apun ich bhagwaan hai
Nawaz bhai, aaj saath Panchi saare hai
Suno woh kya keh rahe hai
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Fitrat humari udna hai,
Suraj ko pankho se oodna hai

Par pinjar ke jo vaasi hai hum
Kat-e Pankh, kidhar hi pehla-e hum?
Ab,

Akele kaisa beet ta hai din
Lage jaise hain, chirag main phasa koi jin

Aaj khair lag hi gaya mujhe
Panchi, jo lagta hai tujhe
Kaisa ghar main kaid rehna lagta hai.
Kaisa kat-a pankh lagta hai.

Why I write

My heart is exposed, it beats
Pumping no blood but words
I trap the pulse of an idea
And translate thoughts to words

My heart's a bottle of ink
Me a paper - on I scribble
I've got stories to tell
Bioscope waala, I can be called then.

Reasons I write are many
I write for you & everybody
I write for me, I'm melancholic
I also write about tyranny

I write about plight
When my heart bleeds
Not with blood but ink
I can be a hypocrite

I write because of my inaction
Of fear - there is a too much loose
I write to you
Lacking a courage to face you

I write to you a part or me
Personal and Fiction
I send you an emotion
Pain and desolation

Often I hide behind words
But I uphold an opinion
But I write today with honesty
I'll always write it all with integrity