एक सिक्के के दो पहलू

ना काम की पूर्ति ना घर में सुकून 

ना मन में शांति ना दिल में जुनून

ना दर्द के आँसू ना ख़ुशी की धुन

मिटी का मैं, बस मिटी में जा मिलू

(Diksha edited it and made it this wonderful, credits to her)

The old one that I had written is below.

ना काम की पूर्ति ना घर में सुकून 

ना मन में शांति ना दिल में जुनून

दुख हैं कठिन, सुख भी कठिन

दर्द के है आंसू और ख़ुशी के भी वही 

Heera

Bhin bhin prakaar ke hain hum sab
Bhin bhin humari soch

Koyale ki kahan main utar chale hain
Karne heere ki khoj?

Helpless

I lay paying to God

Please put me out of this misery
Dreading the onset of dusk and the coming of night 

I lay praying to God 

Please let this day be the dawn I want to see
Dreading another night of pain and shivering 

I lay praying to God 

Please never let any man experience such suffering 
Dreading the sight of the same trouble and uncertainty

I lay praying to God 

Please bring me back my old health and energy
Dreading to be stuck in such a state of dependency

I lay praying to God 

Please take me away, I can't handle it anymore 
Dreading to go another day for such was the trauma I had to undergo 

I lay praying to God 

Never again I want to experience this 
I know I am vulnerable but this is not how I wanted to experience it.

And he did listen. You've got to get beaten to feel the pain an respect it.

If i were a song

अगर मैं एक गीत होति

तुम उसके बोल होति

मुखड़ा तुम्हारी हर वो नादान्नगी बयान करती

अंतरा तुम्हारी हर वो बात

अगर मैं चांद होता

तोह रात तुम होती

तारों के संग लुखा चुप्पी तुम खेलती

जुगनू की सुबह तुम होती 

अगर मैं एक कविता होता 

उसका लेख तुम लिखती 

कभी आंधी में मिलती मुझे 

कभी फूलो में छिपति

अगर मैं नदी होता 

बहते पानी का साज़ तुम होती 

आलेख अतीत का मेरे तुम रखती

मेरे होने की गवाह तुम होती

अगर मैं मिट्टी होता 

तोह सांस उसमे तुम भर्ती

जीने की वजह तुम होती 

बाकायदा जीवन तुम होती 

In Roman 

Agar main ek geet hota

Tum uske bol hoti 

Mukhda tumhari naadangi bayan karti

Antra tumhari har woh anokhi baat 

Agar main chaand hota

Toh raat tum hoti

Taaron ke sang lukha chupi khelti

Jugnu ki subeh tumhare aane hoti

Agar main ek kavita hota

Uske lekh tum likhti

Kabhi aandhi main milati mujhe

Kabhi phoolo main chipti

Agar main nadi hota 

Behte paani ka saaz tum Hoti

Alekh ateet ka mere tum rakhti

Mere hone ki gavah tum hoti

Agar main mitti hota 

Toh saans usme tum bharti

Jeene ke wajah tum hoti

Bakaida jeevan tum hoti

Ek Ehsaas

Khushboo hain tu, kuch meethi si
Dhun hain tu, ek madhur si

Bol hain tu, ek adhuri kavita ke
Ehsaas hain tu, ek khaali bistar ka
Khamoshi hain tu, cheer ke jaati hui 
Neend hain tu, door bhaagti hui 

Tadap hain tu, ek lambi lagi lath ka
Dhyan hain tu, us tooti samadhi ka

Jab kareeb thi tu toh kadar kaha thi 
Jab chali gayi tu toh takleef kaha thi 
Reth hain tu jo pisalti chali gayi
Rakeeb ke oor tu dhalti chali gayi

Na main ab tere aankon ka noor hoon 
Na main tere dil Ko du, woh sukoon hoon
Bas ab, teri khani ka khatam hua ek panna hoon
Tera ateet ka main ek sira hoon. 

Door kahi choor ke us paar, yadon main dafna hoon.
Tere naye ishq ka main ek marg darshi hoon.
------>
(Buried under a load of past memories,
I am your wisdom to a fresh blossom of love)

(Credits: Bahadur Shah Zafar for picking a line)

I'll Live

I quit everything, I put my trust in you and you've lost me now 

You've lost me for a simple reason, you've got the money 
I gave up my independence for your dreams that remained unfulfilled

I gave up my identity for I thought I'd be nurtured by you 
But you let me down, you've thrown me around

I am no slave to be beaten and bashed, no cattle to be whipped and thrashed 
I may be a soft heart but I am not one who gives up 

I am disappointed for you failed to fulfill your duties 
I am sad for you broke me from within just because you have the money and I don't

I'll pick up my pieces and I'll walk
I'll walk with crutches but I'll walk 
I'll run, may be not soon, but I'll run 
I'll sprint, I may not be a winner, but to the finish line I'll sprint.

I am not giving up so easy.
I will pick up the pieces and I will build a life.

It may take a couple of years but I strive to survive.
I hit my lowest ebb around this time last year and have not yet recovered. I guess I haven't learned from my mistakes.

I'll pick up the pieces and I'll build a life. I will. A promise.

Nanhi Pari

Ek sapna dekha tha, ankoha shayad
Ek raah pakdi thi, khatin shayad

Ek dil diya tha, pyaar hua shayad
Ek dil liya tha, naya ehsaas hain shayad 

Ek mukaam pe paunche, ab aage kya?
Sapna poora kare, chale saath kya?

Hosla hain, tu agar saath hain 
Nadaan hoon main, par tu paas hain.

Ab is mukaam pe hain ki dar lagta hain
Naya mod hain yeh, aage kya hota hain 

Nai shuruaat hone ko hain
Nani si jaan ab bas aane ko hain 

Tu sapna hain mera ankoha ka
Tujhe paana aasan nahi tha

Do dilo ka tu woh ehsaas hain 
Aankon ka taara mera pyaar hain

Tu hosla hain meri tu himmat meri 
Tu ansh hain meri tu jaan hain meri 

Meri ankhon ka tara ab aa bhi ja 
Haathon main meri, tu mere seene se lag ja.