Helpless

I lay paying to God

Please put me out of this misery
Dreading the onset of dusk and the coming of night 

I lay praying to God 

Please let this day be the dawn I want to see
Dreading another night of pain and shivering 

I lay praying to God 

Please never let any man experience such suffering 
Dreading the sight of the same trouble and uncertainty

I lay praying to God 

Please bring me back my old health and energy
Dreading to be stuck in such a state of dependency

I lay praying to God 

Please take me away, I can't handle it anymore 
Dreading to go another day for such was the trauma I had to undergo 

I lay praying to God 

Never again I want to experience this 
I know I am vulnerable but this is not how I wanted to experience it.

And he did listen. You've got to get beaten to feel the pain an respect it.

Ehsaas

Panne khaali maine chod diye hain
Kahani shuru hone se pehle hi panne mod diye hain
Kyun naam de is kahani ko
Jab paunch hi nahi payenge mukam tak

Befikr toh bas yeh svabhav hain
Shayad dard ka sirf mujhe hi ehsaas hain

Door chale jaayenge aaj khud hi tumshe
Kyun judai ka tumhe baad main kasth de?